Things that make you go hmmn

 I found out today that my friend's sister passed away. She left behind her daughter's son to be cared for by a cousin and my friend. What intrigues me most about this case is the fact of death. I've always been fascinated with such a thing. I often times wonder where people go when they die.My first thought i always whether they went to heaven or hell. I credit my religious beliefs to the fact that I was raised in a christian background. The weirdest part is that I don't attend church on a regular basis, but my brain is consumed with that thought. I wonder at times whether or no my friend's sister knew that when she woke up two days ago, that would be her last day on earth. The reason I ask this is because I know that no one really knows when they are going to die, or even how they will die. She didn't know that she would wake up that morning, have an incident that involves her hitting her head on something and then developing a massive bleed around her brain. It is said that she was found by her grandson, the same lttle one that will be taken care of by my friend. I imagine that for him it was very traumatic. So much so, that he could have nightmares relating to finding her body on the floor. I also imagine the pain and separation he must feel because he lost his own mother a year prior to that, in the same month, but days apart. I was told that his mother lost her life due to a gun shot wound to the head. Her body had been found in an alley somewhere on the southside of town unclothed. My friend said she'd been sodomized. It's my idea that she'd been sexually abused in a manner that was presented to look like a sexual favor but to me seems like a disrespect for her as an individual. The sadest thing is that she was five and a half months pregnant with a girl. The baby was killed as well. I know it's weird but I often wonder if she knew she was going to pass away that day and if she'd known that would've been her last day, whether or not she would have changed her plans. This happened ten days after her thirty first birthday.

And to top it all off, this day has gotten worst because I found out that my baby brother is having problems of his own. He got into a car accident a few days ago and was arrested for driving with no license. He was taken to the jail immediately without going enroute to the hospital. The doctor at the jail supposedly checked  this out and determined he was fine but then when my sister went to visit him today, he didn't even recognize her. She burst into tears.